I haven’t blogged in a while.  The days and weeks are flying and I can’t believe it’s been nearly 6 months.  I decided to do a cleanse/fast last week.  I actually had a girlfriend who sent me an email telling me how amazing her practice was after she fasted for a couple days.  I’d never fasted before and I’m still a newbie to cleansing.  I was taking supplements all week for each meal and still drinking juice.  I needed some sort of sugar…and yes, I was drinking green tea.  First two days were rough and by day 3, wham, I had a huge burst of energy.  My body felt amazing and I felt so connected to myself.

Now, I have to take precautions with any sort of cleanse/fast because of my mentality.  I know how my mind functions and a dark past of eating issues still lurks in the shadows waiting for any sort of acknowledgement.  I’ve always equated that being lighter will make me like myself more.  In addition, since I started practicing, I’ve latched on to the idea that if I weighed less, I’d float.  Every body is different and some are more solid and strong, others are light and floaty, but I rarely recognize that it is possible to be both.

My skin cleared and I really felt like I wanted to listen to mellow music (as opposed to my beat thumping, bass banging techno).  I woke up every morning anxious for practice and felt refreshed (even though I was hungry).  I am so thankful for the practice these days.  Even though there are days when I am unruly and frustrated with myself and any stiff areas I may encounter, it has opened so many portals of the mind for me.  Even if mind were taken aside, I’ve had so many wonderful opportunities arise of late.

I’m helping teach at a nearby health and wellness college with my Korean yoga teacher/friend.  Today, I had an amazing day away from the big city I live in and got to experience a practice of green tea meditation and a truly wonderful Korean lunch.  Even with the huge language barrier, I am feeling so happy and fortunate to be apart of these people’s lives.  They are all so supportive of the practice and, for the first time, I really felt at home and actually wanting to learn Korean.  I’m ready to be established in myself and I’m committing to working towards my inner peace.

…I’m not gonna lie either, I’m really excited for Twilight: New Moon