Yogini’s Quest

I don’t even want to get into how much anxiety I’ve been giving myself this past week.  Yes, I’ve been weighing the pro’s and con’s.  Go, stay, stay, go, stay, stay, go, go.  Of course, I do what I’ve always done — ask way too many people their opinions in the matter.
The two people I [...]

The procession of bodies exiting continues in droves now here in Mysore.  I’ve quite adjusted to the rhythm of knowing people will leave and am finding myself wanting (and ready) to depart myself.  I don’t seem to have much desire to kindle new friendships so much and am spending much time alone at home these [...]

So for being in a 3rd world country, I have to say there are many things that drive me up the wall. As I have mentioned, the frequent power outtages, the dirt and my “permanent” black heels and the fact when I went to sleep last night we had no water in half of [...]

I’ve been confronted by all these crazy emotions since I’ve arrived. I’ve been feeling everything from insane attention to incredibly insecure, soaring practices to ones that cause me to want to leave after standing, but it’s all an open book here. The intense ego and the humility I feel when I realize how [...]

After my near meltdown the other day, I managed to move past my mental issues the other day.  How?  I lounged all day at the pool, talked with friends and realized it’s not so bad.  It all passes…
Yesterday, I helped out at an orphanage.  My gosh, my heart ached.  It was the weirdest sensation ever. [...]

That’s what I hear everyone goes through at least once in their stay in Mysore.
I thought I’d only have one meltdown here. I figured since I got it the first day everything would be smooth sailing from that point forward. January flew by like nothing and practices were strong and inspired
I don’t know if [...]

What is the source of happiness? Is it just contentment with the self? If so, what exactly does it mean to be secure in who I am?  For me, I’ve often seemed to have had to swing on the pendulum of extremes to realize what I thought would make me happy doesn’t at [...]

Often times, I chastise myself for repeating the same cycle in relationships/decisions. I just started reading a book on relationships and there are so many phrases which resonate with me. One being that it is human nature to repeat, but to reframe is healthy. Changing patterns is a scary thing, perhaps because [...]