Yogini’s Quest

I didn’t practice today.  I’m actually pretty sore from yesterday’s improv class…well, that and I drank last night.  M and I hung out after he got done with work.  Yep, believe it or not, we hung out.  Nothing happened though and nothing awkward was discussed, we aren’t getting back together either (for inquiring minds).  I [...]

All of my life I have been so incredibly stubborn, always wanting things to go my way, but not first without approval from someone.  I have a bad habit of asking everyone for their opinion before I come to a decision for fear I will be making the wrong decision.  I have made plenty of [...]

Practice was absolutely awesome today.   That’s all…that and the last couple of days I’ve been experiencing pure happiness.  I’m just happy.  Happy to have life (and happy to be single and in celebration of the power of being alone).

It appears we are officially in fall.  Although, fall for San Diego is a little odd…about a 6 degree drop in temperature from beach weather I suppose.  Okay, so the temperature says it’s 66 degrees outside.  I’m sitting inside in a sweatshirt, sweatpants, socks, eating soup and drinking hot water.  Actually, it’s more like stew [...]

I get so irritated sometimes with customers.  People are really lame and petty about their demands…specifically people who want a particular table with a supposed “better view” of the ocean, when really, you can see the ocean the same from every table on the patio.
Anyway, I got a formal complaint.  Apparently, I was so rude [...]

A handful of people told me this second time around things would come back faster and I’d be stronger.  Um…I’m still waiting.
And conveniently enough, a bulk email got sent out this past weekend notifying the students that the shala would be increasing their fees.  I know ten dollars isn’t a significant amount of money, but they [...]

I was writing back and forth with boodiba today and thought, You know what?! Maybe avoidance is the f*cking answer!
I’m sick of having dreams about M and it’s hard as hell to work with him.  I’m trying to be loving, mature and open…BUT REALLY, I just want to ignore him and pretend like he doesn’t exist.  [...]

Talked to M at work last night and things are going to be okay.  I tell you though, it’s so hard to see someone when you still care about them and know they still care about you. 
Practices are alright these days.  It’s nice to be back though.  I woke up this morning expecting to be [...]

How come learning can be so painful for me?  I don’t get it.  I talked to a girlfriend from the restaurant who only worked during summer and is visiting this weekend.  She wanted to know what happened with M and I.  I felt myself feeling angry and hurt all over again.  Why can’t I just [...]

Okay, well, not for a long time.  So, I tried settling some old garbage with Ryan, I mentioned in an old blog.  When we first started dating, he had gotten a woman pregnant before me (which I knew about).  His x-giflfriend that I’m friends with now told me Ryan also got her pregnant, which was [...]