Why Kayla Itsines BBG Did Not Work
BikiniBodyGuide, hiit, kaylaitsines, training, yoga challenge

Why Kayla Itsines Bikini Body Guide 1.0 Did Not Work

I am going out on a huge limb posting this. So, I was interested in Kayla Itsines Bikini Body Guide for two reasons: results and as a yoga experiment to see the affects hiit (high intensity interval training) would have on my physical yoga practice and mind. Having spent more than the last decade being dissatisfied in my skin, I was sick of feeling sorry for myself. Yoga no longer seemed enough, nor did I want it to be my go-to for exercise. After seeing some of the amazing 4, 6, 12 week transformations on Kayla’s Instagram account, I found myself pulling out my credit card and saying, ‘why not?’ Summer was nearly in full swing and I was not anywhere ready to wear a bikini.

Not that there is not much of a bikini season in Sweden, rather I just wanted to feel good about myself. This does not mean to say that even if I did have an amazing body, I would feel good about myself either. The mind plays a large role in ones happiness and peace in life, but sometimes we need an extra bit of help along the way.

So what are my results? As a yoga practitioner, has Kayla Itsines BBG 1.0 affected my yoga practice and flexibility?

What has worked:

Something about pushing myself, increasing my heart rate and jumping around doing hiit interval training makes me feel amazing! I feel energized after and my body aches in places I had forgotten about (quadriceps, gluttes, biceps). My jeans fit better, I feel stronger, and I have more energy throughout the day. The best news: it takes 30 min.

What hasn’t worked:

I don’t have a 6 or even a 4 pack. My progress pictures hardly look as if anything has changed. I still have stomach rolls. Despite feeling so great, in a way, I feel frustrated that I look quite similar to when I started.

Why Kayla Itsines BBG Did Not Work

Before & After BBG 1.0

Why it hasn’t worked:

I did not follow Kayla’s nutrition plan. I don’t eat gluten or meat and consider myself to be quite a whole food foodie, thus, I didn’t think I needed to purchase it. However, it probably would’ve provided some structure. My biggest weakness: portion control, rice, and dark chocolate. In our home, we love food and making great food. So, while I stay away from junk, wheat, most dairy and sugar, we eat lots of what we do make.

I also do not have any weights. It seems stupid that someone would buy a program and not do it 100%. I don’t blame the BBG at all, it’s amazing actually. We moved apartments during the summer, so I did not want to accumulate extra stuff. Instead, I’ve been using empty ceramic pots, stairs, tables, boxes and other things in the meantime. I have been using a jump rope a lot though. I also haven’t been following the “conventional” LISS recommendation, where you’re supposed to walk for 45 min on off-hiit days. I have a 90 min-almost 2 hour yoga practice that I value, which is plenty of stretching and hard work. And yes, I have still been doing my yoga practice the days I have HIIT training.

Why Kayla Itsines BBG Did Not Work

Lack of accessibility to weights, forced me to get creative and squat a watermelon

Yoga and HIIT training?

I was so sore when I first started doing Kayla’s BBG 1.0, so it made my regular yoga practice hard. I slacked off because my arms or legs were so painfully sore. Surprisingly, putting my legs behind my head was not really affected, but my lower back and IT band have been. My shoulders are probably a bit tighter as I was noticing difficulty binding in the posture below, but it seems to be okay again.

Why Kayla Itsines BBG Did Not Work

While I said that Kayla’s BBG did not work, it was not because of a faulty plan, more of a faulty participant (me). I also should note that it took me longer than 12 weeks to complete the BBG. I repeated the first two weeks two times through, because it was so hard, and then I got the flu midway through. 

All in all, I have thoroughly enjoyed doing it. I feel stronger and more toned, despite feeling as if I look the same. It has been a fun journey and I will definitely continue integrating hiit workouts in my life to keep things fun and fresh.

Am I better person because I train? No, but I am probably more tolerable of the world after I have pushed myself.

I also don’t want to take away from the value of the yoga practice. Yoga could very well be enough and I love that yoga helps address a lot of the mental and emotional wellness factors, but sometimes a little loud music and some high intensity helps shut the mind off.

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When Yoga Is Not Enough
Ashtanga Yoga, bbg1.0, BikiniBodyGuide, hiit, kaylaitsines, training, yoga challenge

When Yoga Is Not Enough

I think there are many benefits of yoga, things I would never challenge or deny. However, I have fought the superficiality of the yoga practice. The obsession with the bodies ability to do a certain pose and then publicize it has bewildered me. I suppose I can see it as art, but I thought it was supposed to be something more. So it goes, that sometimes we have to go outward to go inward and therein, perhaps the physical practice (asana) of yoga is not enough?

When Yoga Is Not Enough

My ashtanga yoga practice has had its ups and downs, but overall, I have gained many benefits from the physical practice. I know of many who have developed amazing bodies from ashtanga. Unfortunately, the whole battle with food has led me to be quite out of sync with my body and food choices. Thankfully, I finally reached a point this past year where I found a way to put it all behind me and develop a diet that made me happy and balanced. I have been mostly staying away from grains and I am legume free, dairy free and pescatarian.

I happened to stumble across a fitness site when reading about the Paleo diet. The truth is no matter how much my diet has changed and or how much yoga I have done, there are still things about my body that make me uncomfortable. Not wanting to rely on yoga for only its physical benefits, I started thinking about alternatives. I do not want to go about abusing my body or avoiding food either. I love food, it is a huge part of my life and relationship. Despite wanting to avoid premature aging from the sun, I have avoided wearing a bikini at all costs over the past two years because of my body.

I have always wanted a toned stomach with lines (not from skin rolls) and I have never been comfortable bearing my midriff, not in the last 8 years at least. My butt is not perky (‘yoga butt’ as a friend aptly termed) and my thighs are not toned. I am sick of feeling as if the only thing on my body that has any mass are my shoulders, no thanks to all the chaturangas. High waisted, skinny jeans or skirts have been the bane of my existence.

When Yoga Is Not Enough

Been using since 2012 and they are falling apart! I need better shoes!

I love ashtanga and I love teaching it.  However, this past year I have had to scale back a lot because of an injury. Without the finances to get help, I started exploring alternative methods as it became clear that yoga was not enough. In fact, it was actually making my pain worse.

At one time in my life, I was a big cardio junkie. I started avoiding high intensity activities though because I was afraid that it would make me too stiff for yoga.  But at 31, I wanted to attempt the exercise thing again as it had been clear that to get rid of my bulimia weight or just be at peace with my body, that yoga was not enough. The thing is I needed structure and inspiration. Curiosity directed me to Kayla Itsines. Kayla has been proving that you can get that amazing bikini body, without being bulky. So I though, great!

But, can I get a bikini body through training and still be able to put my legs behind my head? Will training make me stiff?

When Yoga Is Not Enough

Her program is 12 weeks long. I have forgotten how it feels to really be sore. Nonetheless, Kayla’s one day of basic stretching just does not cut it for this yoga practitioner.

I meant to post weekly, but I can only do two belated posts instead. It is scary sharing photos. I actually have taken longer than 12 weeks to do the guide, which I will explain in my next post. I also did not do one of the things you are supposed to do: take progress shots, weight and measurements weekly. It is recommended to do this because emotions lie, but I am quite afraid of numbers defining me – and my jeans do fit better, or at least I feel that way. Be kind. I don’t actually remember if this was week 6 or 7, but here it is:

Progress shots of BBG 1.0

Left to right: Week 7, Week 1, Week 1, Week 7. Bad ordering and was too lazy to fix it.

And for the record, I have been very shy about letting anyone about this, because so many of my friends believe yoga is enough – and for many it is! Results aren’t as obvious as others I have seen.

My next post: why Kayla Itsines BBG 1.0 did not work for me – and did the Bikini Body Guide make me stiff?

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Why Yoga Daily
asana, Ashtanga Yoga, Tiffany Lee, Yoga

Why Yoga Is A Daily Practice

Since I have started doing reception at a yoga studio, I have met all sorts of interesting people. There’s a guy who was disappointed that the 10-class card only lasted 3 months. I asked him why. He told me he felt “pressured” to come once a week. I looked at him and said, “the point is to come daily.”

Then, came an influx of reasons as to why he could not do this or why his other activities were also “yoga.”

I get it. People like to do a bunch of different things, have variety, and take days off, but there is a reason behind having a daily yoga practice. I advise exploring some of that discomfort and discovering the meaning behind why one might not want to do yoga every day.

Here are some reasons why yoga should be a daily practice:

When the going gets tough…

My first teacher, who I owe a lot, used to often say many silly catchy lines during class. I always thought of it as his loving way to direct someone’s attention toward something or lighten up the sometimes intense mood. Despite having lost contact with him, when the going got tough, one of the phrases he would say was “avoidance is not the answer.”
Ashtanga is an especially challenging yoga practice. It demands a lot of discipline, even more since I practice alone. I do not have a teacher standing over me or a community in the room, challenging or supporting me. In fact, it is quite the opposite as, it is usually just my partner and I. Yet, I find that getting on my mat and practicing is necessary. As most people have probably learned once in their life, when the going gets tough, that is the time to persist! Tough times and challenges teach us something about ourselves, our abilities and our minds.
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Doing something daily allows you to hone, refine and shift what was once challenging into something that is comforting.

Practice compassion

When one does the same practice regularly, you obviously start to encounter your ego in a variety of ways. When your ego doesn’t work to your benefit or liking, it is the perfect time for compassion. Personally I have gotten so frustrated and agitated at my physical inability to do something. Maybe I am giving the asana practice more credit than it is worth, but I would like to think the whole point of all of this is acceptance. Acceptance of you, of where you are, and of the perhaps incredibly flexible or smelly person next to you.

Not judging yourself also could mean being comfortable with where you are, no matter the circumstances.

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Learning compassion towards yourself and others is an aspect of the yoga practice.

Yoga is not only a physical exercise.

By a “daily” practice, I do not mean to say that you need to be doing physical yoga 7 days a week. I do not recommend this. I understand that life happens, people are too tired, work is too much, you are hungry, you are lazy, whatever…but if you start to make a habit out of your excuses for not practicing, you’re only harming yourself.
Yoga comes a variety of forms and most people are only really familiar with the asana (physical) form. Be it karma (service), bhakti (devotional), or meditation, it doesn’t and shouldn’t be dependent on going to a class with other people, bending and twisting your body. It is supposed to be about bending and twisting your mind! It is learning the ability to step away from your present mindset that has probably left you in cycles of suffering at one point. In fact, the whole goal behind yoga, as I understand it, is that all these insanely contorted postures will take you less outside, and more inside. You’ll hopefully feel less attached to the outer form and your ability or inability to do something will transform into acceptance and being still.
Obviously, if you don’t have a set yoga sequence you are accustomed, it is not easy to start from nothing. It is important to have a teacher and it is important that you are not just making up postures or jumping into poses because you saw someone doing it on Instagram and it looked “cool.” This is a great way to get injured.
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Yoga is so much more than a physical practice. Photo courtesy of Epic Photojournalism.

Practice makes perfect.

Ever wonder why you still can’t do a headstand? Try doing it every day for a month and you’ll probably be doing it. Of course, I don’t mean only doing headstand alone, there is a whole process that accompanies the success of an asana. So, your pose might never be perfect, but whoever said good things came easy. In order to improve at something, we must face it fearlessly and persistently daily, in possibly every moment, on and off the mat.

I should add that it is fun to switch up yoga classes and do different routines or activities, but the reason behind repetition is that it forces you to confront yourself in a new light. Your body is changing everyday! As you develop your yoga practice or whatever other training, you will come up against the same things, be them mentally or physically. Facing and overcoming these confrontations are essential for growth.

Thus, the next time you are trying to talk yourself out of practicing (and this does take a person who is willing to be honest with themselves), investigate this aversion. Instead of avoiding it, face it.

See you on the mat.
Why Yoga Daily

No matter what, make time for your yoga practice, every day!

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Pilgrimage for Healing
Ashtanga Yoga, Bucket List, Buddha, Buddhism, Goals, India, Pema Chodron, Recovery, Tiffany Lee, Travel, Yoga, Yoga N' Spice

Pilgrimage for Healing

I must admit that I feel a little bashful posting this. I have thought that perhaps it seems selfish, crazy, or just unbelievable. I have written for quite sometime now that I wished I would post more frequently, but now I have more of a motivation. This is a lengthy post, but I wanted to explain my reasoning thoroughly. Please help us, if you can, whatever you can offer, get to India/Nepal. Here’s my detailed story behind it:

Pilgrimage for Healing

Pilgrimage in India. Photo courtesy of Seth Lagner and Sati Shannon Rose Chmelar

Why:

For anyone who has ever suffered from an addiction, a loss of direction, or just felt like you couldn’t get out of bed; you have experienced the nature of suffering. At one point, we have all experienced heavy emotions and for many, it passes or we press on. Some find taking up a new hobby, experience, or relationship can fill that space. For others, we may attempt to fill that void with self-destructive afflictions. Regardless of the direction hard times have taken you, no one is unscathed from pain, sadness, frustration or fear. All of us carry suffering deep within our tissues and memories. Our body and mind does not forget and forever more, our choices and words are often dictated by things that have pained us or that we have not learned how to let go or accept.

In this way, we can all relate. Through this, we all share a very common and vulnerable bond. Many of us hide behind our fear of repeating mistakes, failure, inadequacy, money, and so on. Yet, if we were able to tap into the nature of this suffering and find the freedom within that vulnerability, I imagine we might feel a great sense of relief and peace with the way things are.

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India pilgrimage. Photo courtesy of Seth Lagner and Sati Shannon Rose Chmelar

About me and this, in a nutshell:
During my adolescent years, my emotional awareness of myself and others led me to believe I wasn’t good enough. Like many of my peers, I started to experiement with alcohol. Going to parties provided a false notion that I belonged in a community, which quickly developed into sexual involvment with many other adolescent boys. None of us obviously bore the knowledge of the detrimental effects that having multiple sex partners can do to a person, especially a teenager. When I was 18, I found peace in God and returned to Christiantiy for refuge from my confusion.

Once in University,“God” no longer was enough. The seed of inadequacy had already grown, and I was looking for wholeness. I wanted to belong and suffered for not feeling like I did. It was there I discovered the treachery of bulimia, which would become a hidden source of painful comfort that would torment me for the next ten years.

Unfortunately, therapists, doctors, a short-lived cocaine addiction, and a revisit to the Christian faith brought me no solace. Searching, I stumbled into my first yoga class and the journey of seeing myself in a new light started to slowly unravel. Yoga did not initially bring me peace, but something about the practice and the community intrigued me. People looked amazing at various ages and cared for themselves. I even found myself free of my eating issues for nearly 2 years.

Sadly, it all came apart my first time abroad. My yoga journey to India was supposed to have been the place where I would find “God” and myself. I was at a loss. I had traveled so far to realize that I had gone nowhere.

Pilgrimage for Healing

Teaching yoga in South Korea in 2011 at Wall Street English.

Feeling an urge to escape, I believed a change of scenery would make me whole again. With the longing to be open to new things, I landed in South Korea. Accordingly, my eating disorder followed. There I managed to connect with the yoga community and start teaching my first ashtanga yoga classes. But, my bulimia still ailed me. It saddens me the way my suffering prevented me from just living. My secret caused me to alienate myself whenever possible. It was when I happened to listen to some of Pema Chodron’s buddhist talks that things began to shift.

She spoke of working with the nature of the mind, instead of fearing it. It is when you come to know your own suffering, you can relate better with the world. It was the first time I had heard that I could use my suffering as a vehicle for compassion and connection with others. I had never considered attempting to understand the nature of suffering. The entire time, I had been doing everything to avoid it.

Pilgrimage for Healing

Photo courtesy of Christian Bernert and Sati Shannon Chmelar

So where am I today and what do I want to do?

As for yoga, the physical practice has tested my willpower in many ways. After having had to practice alone for so many years, yoga has been a testament to discipline and faith that I clung to hope for peace within. Perhaps self indulgent to be so consumed by a physical discipline, the yoga posture works towards the ability for us to be one with who we are, instead of a disconnected bystander. It also teaches us that the impossible is possible.

Love has brought me wholeness too. Outside my family, who suffered greatly when I was in the midst of my personal angst, my best friend and fiance has been life’s greatest instrument of unconditional love and compassion. He has never tried to change or fix me, rather has only accepted me for where I was and helped to find a way to direct me in a healthier path.

Even so, to be a good partner, lover, friend and caretaker of myself, I have needed to learn the tools to nourish me. It is beyond advanced yoga postures and it far surpasses inspirational quotes, self-help books, therapy and drugs. The greatest gift brought to me from my near 10 years of bulimia was understanding the nature of suffering and the mind.

Pilgrimage for Healing

Love, acceptance and non judgment has been the greatest healing on my life.

Some never journey this far with their suffering, but we have all experienced it to different degrees. Shoving aside or pressing through has never been a solution for me though. I have been seeking an understanding and a reconciliation with my mind.

I am not a therapist nor do I posses the proper education or credentials to equip someone else on their journey through suffering. However, it is my wish to have the ability to give back by directing others through wisdom and helping discover the right direction for their journey to peace. Religion or not, I think the principles of the yoga practice and Buddhist philosophy offer useful, life saving techniques towards finding tranquility and contentment during difficult times.

From the other perspective, my partner has been witness to my suffering. He has held space for me all these years, expressing his desire to understand and love me unconditionally. He is an example for those who do have a healthy relationship with themselves. However, none of us are untouched and if we do not experience suffering to such a deep extent, we probably know someone very close to us who does.

Pilgrimage for Healing

Help us go to India! Photo courtesy of Christian Bernert and Sati Shannon Chmelar.

What/Where/When:
In February of 2015, a pilgrimage to the heart of dharma in Nepal and India will be led by the Vasudhaiva Institute. The journey will take us to the 8 major sites of the Buddha along with a focus of the lineage, comparative study and cultural immersion. Additionally, we’ll also be exploring our own ashtanga yoga practices in more depth under the guidance of Sati.

Yoga is the vehicle for healing the body, both inside and out. Meditation, or finding peace with the mind, is the avenue for healing of the mind. This is a journey of self study that will enable us to share it externally through our own teachings, both yoga instruction and food.

Additionally, we plan on wedding summer of 2015! We look to this pilgrimage for healing as a way to set up a solid framework and prepare ourselves for a life of love and marriage.

How your support would help:

Your contribution would help us better equip ourselves so we can share our experience, which will hopefully have a healing affect others. After this trip, our goal is also to integrate food into our work and bring joy with all the senses to every meal. The last component for my healing has been making peace with food. After battling food for so long, I have come to realize that I have a great love of it. So, it is a great gift to be able to use what I so long feared to serve and nourish others. I will use my writing to document the journey, write and blog, as well as apply the learned knowledge to developing Yoga n’ Spice and help others find balance and healing.

We’re attempting to raise $6,000. When I think about how many friends we both have on Facebook, if everyone gave $5, we’d be set, but not everyone cares or has the ability so I’m reaching out to cyberspace!

Yes, it is expensive, but this is the real deal and a very comprehensive journey. It is demanding of us (we will have to do a lot of self study prior) and will give back to us in an even richer way. Sati is an amazing teacher and friend, so I sincerely hope we’re able to make this a reality.

Thank you for taking the time to read this through…and a thousand thank you’s if you feel so compelled to support. For more questions, please write me.

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Tips for Immigrants in Sweden
Expat, Pine Tribe, Scandinavia, Scandinavian Culture, Sweden, Tiffany Lee

Tips for Immigrants in Sweden

Yes, once again I have changed the format of my blog. Shortly, I will be moving my blog soon over to our new site, but I’ll let you know when that happens (if anyone is even still reading).

I can’t believe it is August already. I love summer. Many Swedes think summer here is so beautiful, but it many ways, it only makes me long for summer in San Diego. The weather in southern Sweden, although mild in temperature, is irregular. One day of bright sunshine and blue skies could be followed by torrential rainfall and wind. People often ask me if I like living in Sweden, and other then because of love and we thought it would be easier to get a visa, it has proven to be a difficult transition.

Tips for Immigrants in Sweden

However, I am now in a balancing act with everything that is happening. My days are filled. School, my internship and job are equally absorbing my time and energy, leaving little time for my yoga practice and/or fun with my boyfriend. However, we manage to do the best we can with the time we have each day. (If you are interested in what I’m doing for my internship, go to this link and scroll for the articles with my name, I have been writing there on a weekly basis since April).

One of the greatest things this summer is that I finally got a job. Being an ashtanga practitioner, we often don’t often intermingle with other yoga forms. However, in a moment of desperation, I contacted yoga studios within the city to see if there was any need for a receptionist. Low and behold, I am doing reception work at a hot yoga studio. I have taken a few classes so far and I have actually really enjoyed it. Reception work is not my dream job, but it is something for now.

One thing I have to say is that the life of an immigrant is not easy in Sweden. If you didn’t move to Sweden to be a student, moving here for love or asylum makes life challenging. Most SAMBO’s (cohabitation with partner) who are foreigners struggle to find their niche.

Here are some tips I have learned as an immigrant in Sweden:

1. Learn the Language

Unfortunately, there is a waiting time for SFI, Swedish for Immigrants, but once you are able to start taking classes, the pace of life will become more interesting. Since most people find it difficult to secure a job immediately (or within the first year) after arriving, attending language classes is a great way to meet other people in similar situations and begin integration. While I haven’t studied for so long, just learning a little has helped tremendously for simple things when I’m out and about. Additionally, the language is NOT easy. The grammar is all a big mess to me, but I am hoping that things will start to smoothen out soon enough.

If you can’t take classes or master the language, just learning a little of the local language, will make your transition into Swedish culture much easier!

Tips for Immigrants in Sweden

2. Speak English

When all else fails, if you can, speak in English! Unfortunately, English is a big reason why I probably have it loads easier than a lot of immigrants from non-English speaking countries. My internship is in English and my job does not require Swedish. Depending on the country, going around speaking in English might be a disservice. However, in most of the major European cities, English is helpful though. Keep in mind, some of the older Swedes are afraid to speak in English. This is not always the case though, but do not be surprised if some seem unwilling to help or respond to you in Swedish. Just look for someone else to ask if necessary.

3. Put yourself out there

This is something I would recommend anywhere. I know it is so scary, but you have to be friendly. Similarly, be sensitive. Swedes are not typically outwardly, friendly people. If you see a Swede on the street, do not be surprised or disappointed by the lack of warmth you may receive. However, if you can manage to break the ice, I have found a great majority of them to be really kind. A good way to break the ice is to host a get together with people you have met that you’re interested in cultivating a friendship. Swedes stick together with friends they have known since childhood, so you will find that once you’re apart of a group, some of them have known each other for a long time.

Tips for Immigrants in Sweden

4. Apply, Apply, Apply

Other students I have met from all over (albeit, a mass majority from the Middle East) often ask me how I got a job here, especially so quickly. While, I do not think it was that quick, I realize that I secured an internship 1 1/2 months after getting my residency and a paying job within 4 1/2 months. I did this by relentlessly applying. I have no tricks up my sleeve and quite frankly, very little experience with what I was applying for, but I persevered. Send out your resume and CV to everyone! Look to LinkedIn for companies within the area that might be of interest to you and just send them a mail. You might not get a response, most likely not, but Rome wasn’t built in a day.

5. The system

There is a tricky thing about moving to a new country and that is that you have to abide by the laws. In Sweden they have something called the personal number *personnumer* which is similar to the U.S. social security number. You must get this number if you ever expect to get a job, a bank account, go to school, or just be apart of life.

6. The bank account

You cannot open a bank account without a personal number. You cannot get online banking, which basically means, you won’t have access to an ATM card or online banking, until you have a salary. Handelsbanken apparently does not have this requirement though and I have heard they have remarkable customer service. I made the mistake of opening an account with Swedbank. Swedbank, perhaps all the others as well, will charge you for using their online banking and getting a bank card. I have been frustrated by their lack of customer support and general timeliness. Farewell, free easy banking and amazing customer service, I have been spoiled in the states.

7. Be patient, but not stagnant!

Don’t sit at home waiting for something to happen. Well, if you sit at home, do something! If you’re lonely, accept this is the way things are for now. Find something to occupy your time, create ways to not sink into despair. It is not easy moving to a new place. Even if you have a Swedish partner, they probably will have to go to work at a certain point. Friends will come, but it takes time! Join a gym, pick up a new hobby, or just start reading!

8. Intermingle

If at all costs, do not only stick within your own. You’re no longer in your home country, stop trying to recreate everything that you once had there. Perhaps, it will make you feel less homesick, but to a new home, you have to immerse yourself in the culture. Sometimes this might only mean going for a walk in the neighborhood or visiting a new restaurant every so often, you will eventually have to meet some of the locals.

Tips for Immigrants in Sweden

Hopefully these tips for new immigrants to Sweden, or anywhere else will come in handy. I find that the mass majority of them could have been applied when I lived in South Korea.

Images from herehere, herehere

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Noma Copenhagen
Food, Gastronomy, Michelin Restaurant, Pine Tribe, Scandinavia, Scandinavian Culture, Tiffany Lee

Return of the World’s Best Restaurant: Noma

One of my favorite travel foodies, Anthony Bourdain, visited the best restaurant in the world, Noma. Noma is actually nearby where I work at Pine Tribe in Copenhagen. Unfortunately, I haven’t been fortunate enough to eat here.

I don’t know how to plug my full post here, so I’ll share an excerpt:

Anthony Bourdain’s Parts Unknown: Copenhagen episode features Noma’s, René Redzepi, and the man behind the world-class restaurant. If you are unfamiliar, Bourdain is an American chef, author, and television personality. He’s gained a culinary bad boy image by openly expressing his opinion and visiting places that most culinary celebrities wouldn’t dare. Bourdain constantly goes against the grain as he supports many chefs around the world who are taking a non-traditional approach. Bourdain gave a cultural glimpse into the world of Scandinavia when Redzepi, who seemed quite normal and humble in nature, highlighted the preliminary lack of support he felt from the Danish community.


To see the complete article, learn about the restaurant, and learn about jantelagen (an age-old Scandinavian mindset), go here.

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Malmö Turning Torso
Pine Tribe, Scandinavia, Scandinavian Culture, Tiffany Lee, Yoga N' Spice

When Cultural Immersion Begins

As I said in my last posts, the past 6 months have been rough. We’ve been unemployed, moving from place to place, and money has been tight. However, we’ve had a lot of support from within the community. Friends have let us stay with them and there have been others that have not really understood the depth of our situation, yet still just provided a nice time. I’m so grateful for Swedish people!

Truthfully, the stress of moving to a new place (country) and trying to get settled has put our relationship in a tough place. I regretfully admit the number of distressing conversations have been a good majority because of me and my fears. Nothing could’ve prepared me for the difficulties of immersing into a new culture, despite it still being a western country.

A Swedish woman had shared an old Swedish adage with me, “gott ska till goda komma,” or  that good things come to good people. With all of our fights, I was beginning to think this quote wasn’t applicable to me or my situation. I don’t know if it’s the laws of physics or karma, but I think tough stuff can only happen for so long before things start to take a turn for the better.

I know it’s no excuse, but in case you haven’t heard from me or us, this is why:

Morning Mysore Classes (Undervisning)

When I got notification that I finally was able to start Swedish languages classes, we promptly decided to stop our morning mysore program. This was for many reasons, but two were that I wouldn’t have the time  because of school and with our present financial circumstances, we both just needed to get some steady income from regular work. I’m sorry to our one dedicated student, Maria, I hope we’re able to teach you again in the future.

All in all, I just want to be a student right now and I am…

SFI – Svenska för Invandrare

After 8 or 9 weeks on the waiting list, I started at SFI or Svenska för Invandrare (Swedish for Immigrants). Long story short, Sweden offers free language classes for new immigrants. My course is 4 hours every morning, 4 days a week. Tuesdays I’m free, which is typically my day to go to Copenhagen for my internship. When I’m not studying or writing, I’ve been teaching a Spanish woman English. Language immersion is accelerating my life, but it’s also connecting me to cultures I never would’ve ever come into contact elsewhere. People from Syria, Afghanistan, Iran, etc…we have a lot of fun in class too, despite language barriers.

Work (Arbete)

A friend within the law community connected B with a full-time job, called hemtjänst or assisted living. He visits elderly, makes sure they are fed, washed, administers medicine, etc. He has expressed his conflict with giving drugs as we try to be as natural as possible in our daily lives. The irony is that most of his coworkers smoke and eat junk food. I wonder why they don’t see the correlation, the “nurses” now will become those they are caring for if they keep up their present lifestyle. Do people just give up or is it really that people are so unaware?

I was expressing to B that this job has it’s value and importance in the community. He’s not just maintaing people and keeping them alive with drugs, there’s an opportunity to share and give something that isn’t discussed in his training. However, I understand his frustrations and angst about feeding unhealthy food or pharmaceuticals to sick people. I’ve started reading The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying and it addresses our views of aging and dying. It talks about the value of hospice work because it gives practical and emotional care. Where B can make a difference is finding a way to give something more profound though, something in the form of spiritual comfort.

Pine Tribe

My internship is going well and I’m still really happy to be working with Pine Tribe. I’m not sure if this will actually result in a potential work opportunity or if I am just that, an intern. Either way, learning Swedish and the experience I have and will further gain with Pine Tribe will hopefully land me a job in the autumn.

On top of language classes, my internship, I also will hopefully be starting a part time job as a receptionist at a yoga studio. I’m just ready to be contributing to things financially as I feel it’s an unfair burden for B to carry on his own.

Yoga N’ Spice

Malmö Redhawks

I’ve lost steam with this project, we had been tirelessly contacting companies without having much result. But, after nearly 7 weeks of correspondence, we’ve finally landed a teaching gig with the Malmö Redhawks, the professional hockey team in the city.

This excites me in so many ways because for a long time I’ve wanted to teach yoga to athletes and businesses. We’re hoping other opportunities will develop in this area, but again, it’s summer and in Scandinavia (or perhaps Europe), everything sort of stops.

And no, our website is still not how I want it to be, but I don’t really care so much at the moment.

Apartment (Lägenhet)

We finally have our own place. The bed isn’t the nicest. Did I mention Swedes have really small beds? Despite being the land of Ikea, people still seem to stick with 120 cm size bed in a lot of apartments we viewed. If you’re American, this is something between a twin or single size bed and a double. It’s a nice temporary solution for the summer, but we’re a bit tight in the sleeping situation. C’mon, albeit I’ve had some big bed sizes in the past, but this is a bit small. We’re in a great location though, not too close or too far from the center of the city. We’re aiming to move to our official place come September.

Torrey Pines State Beach San Diego

Despite the weather in Sweden being nicer in June, I still am nostalgic for summer in San Diego.

All in all, the structure and routine of school, my internship, getting a part time job, B’s full time job and random yoga gigs here and there are enough to keep us busy for while. I’m thankful to have stuff happening. The momentum is picking up and I’m starting to feel like immersion is becoming a reality. Although, I’m feeling like the pendulum is swinging the opposite direction. I’ve gone from having not so much to do to having far too much. As B always says, ‘you have to swing out of balance to find balance.’

Truthfully though, I feel so spread thin with my friends. I’m sorry to all my friends in other countries. It’s so hard to stay connected with everyone with all the time zones, in addition to try to develop a life and friendships here. It’s hard to not lose touch with a lot of you. You’re still in my heart though!

Ahead this month are many fun all Swedish things. Midsommar is right around the corner, something I must post about as we’ll be doing it really Swedish this year. Happy June! I’m so ready for you summer!

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Hanging upside down
Life, Scandinavia

Survival tips of the smallest

I just want to express my sincerest gratitude for all the sweet emails and kind words I’ve received since my other post.  I have used my blog as a vehicle to express what’s really going on, which means, I have made myself completely vulnerable to the moment that things are happening when I share.  With this, I’d like to say that things are fine, we’re doing okay.  I’m not in a puddle of despair and I’m positive that things are bound to make a shift for the better.  Seriously, I really feel this.

With that, this situation is all too familiar to me (emotionally) because I’ve been moving around so much the past 5 years.  It takes time to get settled and re-settled in every country.  I think this might be the biggest challenge that I’ve been up against though because I came here without an income or apartment.  Alas, I’m feeling honestly okay and though we’ve still got a lot of work ahead of us, we’ll manage someway.

Open Arms

Now is really the perfect time for me to just be open to things as they come, but of course, there’s a few things I’m also doing to not fall apart.

So a few tips for my basic survival:

  • Find something everyday to be grateful.  At the moment, it’s the beautiful tulips on the street, the knowledge that I have my boyfriend by my side and the amazing coffee bar I’m writing from. I love you Djänke! My fellow American readers, try pronouncing Djänke!
  • Exercise. Walking on the streets and my yoga practice has been a lifesaver.  Getting a bit of energy and blood flowing does wonders for a weak or tired mind/heart.  Be sure to go outside.  It’s easy to get small in yourself and think you’re the only thing that matters, go outside and you’ll see, you’re not alone.
  • Sit in silence.  Let yourself just sit for 10 minutes and breath.  Yes, you breathe all the time, but how often are you aware of your breathing, the sound, the length.  How about your posture, your shoulders?  Give yourself a few moments to sink into being present with yourself.
  • Care for yourself.  Typically, for me this is a time when I’d find myself indulging in sugar.  However, because I’m doing a project for Pine Tribe, so I’m avoiding refined sugar at all costs right now.  This also includes avoiding the consumption of alcohol and I’m reducing my intake of caffeine.  Eat fresh food and your brain and body will function better under stress.
  • Meet Friends. Not so you can wallow in self pity and complain, but so you can share what’s happening.  Additionally, familiar faces offers a lot of support, even if you don’t feel like airing all your garbage.
  • Making New Friends

    Meeting friends within the is a great way to handle the waves in life

  • Do something familiar that is completely enjoyable and can be done from home.  For me, I love watching films.  I’m a huge film fanatic.  So, I like to unwind with a good movie or TV show.  Perhaps a better choice would be to pick up a book and read, but there’s just so many great TV shows out there right now, I can’t bring myself to do it!  Remember, home should be a safe place, not a place to avoid, even if alone.

 

Hanging upside down

Also, the woman we live with has a soft heart.  She has been trying to approach us since the “blow-out.”  After sort of avoiding being in the apartment since Monday, I decided that this was really immature.  We both are very sensitive, my boyfriend and I, and we forgive quickly.  So, I offered to give her a hug yesterday and with that the situation here melted.

We’re still going to move out though :-).  Time for yoga and then a road trip!

 

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Ashtanga Yoga, Pine Tribe, Scandinavia, Sweden, Yoga N' Spice

Rough Beginnings Again

Things haven’t been easy of late. Talk about a rough beginning: a new country, a new culture, a new job, new friends, new housing, what more could you mix together at one time?

For a quick update, allow me to compartmentalize my life into a few details:

Housing.

Apartment in Central Malmö

Our old school apartment in Malmö, Sweden

I haven’t lived in the same place for more than 3 months in over 2 years. I’m sick of moving. We had made the hasty and poor decision to move in with a grandma. It seemed ideal at the time, she was nice and said we’d each live our own lives and not get too involved. However, it’s been on her terms since the beginning. The house has such a heavy energy, from everything from the mismatched decorations to the floral choice of dishware.  But, it’s not the decor that makes the space hard. Upon moving in, we weren’t aware that she smoked. To my understanding she didn’t mention it because she thought we wouldn’t smell it since she smoked on the balcony. Not the case.

A huge factor is that our schedules are the opposite, which she thinks is unusual on our part. I found out she’s my Dad’s age, when I had guessed it to be at least 10 years older. My Dad is on a routine though, he goes to bed at a decent hour and thinks sleeping in is 7:30 am. Fair enough, we go to sleep rather early. It’s 8pm most nights because we get up early (somewhere around 4am) to do yoga and teach. However, she has no routine, other than sitting (or laying) on the couch, glued to the TV,watching classics like Dr. Phil, Rich Housewives of New York or somewhere else, and Gordon Ramsey. This couch party starts around 5 pm to some hour deep into the night. Some days she goes to sleep at 4 or 5 am and then typically never emerges from her bedroom until around 2 or 3 pm. I must say, it’s not often I meet someone who sleeps as many if not more hours than they’re awake.

Either way, there have been nice moments, but everything fell apart recently in regards to something that in my opinion could’ve easily been resolved: booking times for the laundry. A bit of an explosion in Swedish later, we were asked to move out by the end of May. We’ve decided to try to move out sooner, which has caused a bit of stress on our end lately. Albeit, we already had an apartment that we’re waiting to move into at the end of June, but needing to find a place in the meantime will change our lives a bit.

Luckily, someone we know has generously offered to share their home with us and we’re so grateful. They’ve got a beautiful home, a great energy, and an awesome cat!

Employment.

Pine Tribe

I’m interning with Pine Tribe!!  The downside is that it’s an unpaid internship, however, I’m getting loads of experience and I love the people I work with and the company.  I’m realizing more and more that copywriting and content marketing is something that I absolutely love.

Presently, I’m looking for part-time work, but it’s hard to balance everything with yoga and our business.

Yoga n’ Spice.

Yoga N' Spice
Did I mention that starting your own business is hard?  I had attended a business networking event and realized two things 1) I need to learn Swedish and 2) I have no idea how to run a business.

We’d started Yoga N’ Spice rather naively as we had sort of thought “Ohhh we’ll just share our passion for yoga and food.”  We had no plan and no money to back our project.  We had simply assumed we’d make a few calls and it would work itself out.  NOT TRUE.

Some friends had offered to get us started and took a few photos and even launched a website. But, now that the site is up, we are not sure how to manage it.  Our “business” has become a bigger concept than us and now we have the pressure to do something with it. But, we are not business people. My boyfriend has no background in business, communications, or economics. Basically, the best I’ve been able to manage is designing some lousy flyers, business cards and posting strange stuff on FB, Twitter and Instagram. Keep in mind, 3 months ago, we’d never even used Twitter or Instagram.

I told a friend that after the business event that I’d attended that I hadn’t realized we were entrepreneurs. A smile rose on his face as he asked enthusiastically, ‘how did that make you feel? Were you proud?’ My response, “No! I’m terrified, this wasn’t what I thought I was doing!”

Long story short, our efforts at the moment have felt in vain. With little response, and no turnover, we’re both at a loss for how to get Yoga N’ Spice off the ground – or rather, off of our mat.

Teaching.

I love Yoga Kaohsiung

Ashtanga Workshop in Kaohsiung, Taiwan. October 2013.


Not that it needs mentioning, but if the tone if this current post isn’t preparing you for what I’m about to write, you’ll figure it out now. Starting a morning Mysore program has been rough and at the end of our second month, it’s been unsuccessful. I know many friends who’ve started Mysore programs and have warned of the difficulties at the beginning. I guess I didn’t really understand it, especially when we’re sort of relying on some of that work to bring us a little income.

In truth, there has been an interesting discourse of internal dialogue that has been playing itself out quite regularly lately. Thoughts of inadequacy plant themselves deep on a daily basis and the effort of waking up before dawn to teach one student seems vain at the moment. I can’t believe the amount of pounding I’ve been giving my self-esteem lately. I’ve got to make a change and it has to happen now.

Spring in Malmö

Spring is finally in Sweden


The good news is that spring is really here now.  I also have to get back to writing for Pine Tribe, but wanted to share the latest.  To also seem overly down, I have made a niche in the community here with friends.  I’ve heard it’s not easy breaking into the network of friend’s here, but I’d have to say it’s doing okay for me.

We’re off to Stockholm this weekend to finally move the remainder of our things down south.  I’m kind of looking forward to the lengthy road trip with my awesome boyfriend.  It will be nice to just drive for awhile.

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Blog, Pine Tribe, Scandinavia

Pine Tribe

Will share more soon about what’s happening in Malmö soon, but I wanted to write a short post about it on my regular blog.

I’m now writing for Pine Tribe, a Scandinavian digital publishing company.  I’m so excited to be apart of this community and share what’s happening in Scandinavia!  I’ll be writing about all things related to culture and food, so this is totally up my alley.

A summer day in Copenhagen, Denmark

A summer’s day in Copenhagen, Denmark

In the meantime, feel free to check out my first post:

Kitchen Bonding and Graceful Aging

Thanks for the support!

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